Under the Same Sky

I've always been
A hopeless romantic.
A girl in love
with the idea of love.

And as I stare
at the beautiful night sky,
I can't help but think
Dream
That someday
Somewhere
You and I
Will find our way to each other.
As long as we are both under this same beautiful sky.

There's no telling when
Or how we are to meet.
All I know
is that it will happen someday.
Yes, someday,
Our paths will intertwine.
You and I
Will lie under this sky and gaze at it
Together.

Through it All

You and I have been together for so long,
and throughout our journey, many things have gone wrong,
yet here we are, still together, still standing strong in this fight,
because all else could go wrong, but we know our love is right.

So many have said that we won't make it through.
So many doubted us, didn't think this we could do.
But they saw what we did, we proved to everyone we could last
in this world that we are in, where things come and go so fast.

Though we argue so often, I know we'd still be together,
because you and I know that we must give up never.
So we need not always see eye to eye on everything with each other,
because though we're different, we do complement one another.

I know sometimes I say I no longer feel loved by you.
But I realized that was wrong, because love me is all you ever do.
You cared for me like no one ever had.
So I'm sorry for those times that I doubted and got mad.

So, my love, you know by now, that I easily get pissed,
and I'm really sorry for the bad qualities of which I consist.
And I'm really thankful that you do try to be patient with me,
I really do appreciate, though you may not always see.

I do hope that you and I will never forget
all our memories together, though there's more to come yet.
And I do hope also that you will always remember,
that though I am like this, I do love you for forever.

If I had met you...

If I had met you first,
Do you think we could have been together?
Would you have been the one with me now?
Would we have lasted this long?

If I had met you then,
Would we have noticed each other?
Would we be close friends like now?
Would I have liked you the same way as I do now?

If I had met you before her,
Would you have liked me the way you like her?
Would you have courted me the way you did to her?
Would I have been the one in your heart instead?

If I had met you before him,
Would I have fallen for you?
Would I not care about him at all?
Would I have no regrets?

A heart's contemplation

How could I ever put my feelings into words from this mindframe,
When I know full well that you don't and won't ever feel the same?
Tell me what am I to do?
When lately my every dream consists of you.

How am I supposed to feel?
When I don't know anymore what's real..
I keep saying I will cut the ties,
But even to me, they all sound like lies.

My feelings for you have been subtly growing,
All these have happened without me even knowing.
Now how to cut the plant that has blossomed into a tree?
Cut the roots, but now that seems too much for me.

Tell me why you have to act like this?
Why do you always shower me with your sweetness?
You make me long to be the one in your heart,
But I know that I could never play that part..

You do so many things that lead my feelings on.
But I know in truth, that you are just like the Sun.
Too hot to touch, too far to reach.
I'd only get burnt if I continue to beseech.

And I know I must stop this, but I have no idea how.
All I know is I'd sink deeper if I don't do it now.
So I have this request for you that I really want to ask.
Could you please help me put this love for you to finally rest in the past?..

Worth the Wait

Love is greatest of all emotions, they say.

It is one capable of making a person view life in a different way.

Yet love is so often taken for granted or misused

which is why many hearts end up broken and bruised.

But love, when it is true, when it is right

is worthy of the hardships and worthy of the fight.

And such is why so many persist and take their chance

To find the one, that special partner in this lifetime dance.

But as for me, right now my lovelife is at a standstill.

Yet I have faith because I know all this is a part of His will.

And my patience is just being tested

So I will wait, for His plan cannot be bested.

I don't know what lies in the depths of my journey.

I don't even know who and when I'm going to marry.

But to my future partner, I may not know who you are

But I know that the time for us to meet is no longer that very far.

So until then, I will be right here, waiting.

I may get lonely sometimes, but I'm definitely not hurrying.

They say the longer one waits, the better the coming person will be,

the sweeter the love, the more precious depth there is to "we".

So even though I know that waiting can be hard and boring,

and though sometimes it can also be considered tiring.

But I won't give up, waiting is what I'll continue to do,

I know it'll be worth every second when I'm finally with you.

Because you're gonna meet all my standards, be my every dream come true

even the dreams I had but never really knew.

Our story would be one far above all of my fantasies,

because it'd be a reality written by the Greatest Author of love stories.

Though maybe at some point I may have gone and lost my way

But still I know we'd find our way to each other someday.

And I would tell you that I waited for you for so long

but even then I knew you'd be worth it all along.

If Only I'm Just Dreaming

Lately I've been feeling out of sorts.
A lot has been weighing on my mind since that week.
The things you did, the words you said, they got me so confused.
And now I'm pondering if this was all just your ruse.

 I always thought to never trust a guy who tells a girl they're beautiful
as if that's the most normal thing to do or say.
As much as it's music to the ears of women, to me they're more like warning bells sounding beware,
Because at the end of the day, it's the girl that will cry, and the guy that doesn't really care.

 But because of the things you did, I just can't help but wonder.
And I keep thinking of you even when I don't intend to.
I gotta stop this now, because I know this feeling very well,
I know where this ends, but I'm still getting caught under your spell.

 This situation, I don't want it, it's not supposed to be like this.
Once again, I'm in dichotomy. My heart and mind just don't seem to go the same way.
"Leave me be", says my mind, "I don't want you here."
But ever so stubborn, my heart whispers, "I will keep you near.."

 Tell me that it isn't real. Tell me it's just a fantasy.
Tell me it's just a dream, and maybe, just maybe, it's okay to keep dreaming.
Because there's no danger if it's not real.
I won't really fall if it's just make-believe what I feel.

 And if it's not a dream, and you're just playing around.
I'm telling you now that my heart isn't something to toy with.
Because my heart is weak, it falls faster than normally,
So I can't let my guard down, I gotta keep these walls around me.

 And if the feeling's real, and you're trying to get to me.
It's gonna be hard, because I don't intend to give up at all.
I have every reason not to ever let you begin,
Even if you find every conviction, I can't let you barge in.

 And as much as I enjoy such kind of attention, I gotta ask you to stop.
I don't want to misinterpret, I don't want to get my hopes up again.
Because seeing how you are, I don't even think it's likely
that a guy like you would ever go for a girl like me.

 And now if it was all up to me, I'd make this all just part of a dream,
A dream that's gotten out of hand and I need to snap out of.
So now, wake me up, because I'm falling fast, and I don't want to.
No, I don't want to, especially not with you.

You Have No Idea

You have no idea at all, do you?

The effect you have on me

even the little things you do

sends my mind on a confusion spree

When you smile that smile of yours

And the way you have me wondering, hoping.

How you keep me in your magnetic force

even though all I wanna do now is start running.

But you have no idea at all

or maybe you do

and this is you leading me to take the fall

while keeping me from ever reaching you.

Wishful thinking

I know it is my own fault.

Who in their right mind would let themselves fall for a friend?

I knew better than to let it get to this,

But still, I did nothing to avoid what could've been prevented.

What is worse, is I could never tell.

Because I know that it would only complicate matters.

And I also know that you only see me as a friend,

And it is another that you like, another that you seek.

Sometimes I think what if..

And imagine how it would feel.

To capture that love of yours..

To be that apple of your eyes..

But I shouldn't dwell on such ideas.

I shouldn't feed more fodder to my fantasies.

I shouldn't... I really shouldn't.

But I do... And I can't seem to stop myself.

Because in my dreams, I see you and I.

And though it is foolish to wish it so,

Maybe it might even happen, if I wish enough

underneath these stars.

If I were to fall again

If I were to fall again,

it wouldn't be this painful and hard.
I'd be pickier than most women,
'Coz you've set me a new standard.

If I were to love once more,
I swear, I'd be more careful.
I won't let just anyone through my door,
I'd make sure he'd be more thoughtful.

If I were to again fall for you,
It'd be trickier than the last.
I'd make sure you're falling too,
so it won't happen like the past.

If I were to meet my dream guy,
I know that he'll love me so.
Unlike you, he won't make me cry.
You then I could finally forget and let go.

Unsaid

I still remember that fateful day,

that changed my life, brought me to this way.
If only I could turn back the things that happened.
The effect of my actions, if only I could mend.

A lot of stuff have constantly been on my mind,
and it seems that this past I could not leave behind.
I've always wondered how the circumstances could've played,
if back then I had acknowledged the feelings I used to evade.

I've left so many things unsaid,
and to this consequence I had been led.
I am paying the price for the mistakes I've done before,
had I not been so foolish, I could've been happy and more.

I will always blame myself for the love that I lost.
My misplaced pride is the root, is the cause.
I truly regret what I've done to your heart,
in protecting my own, I tore yours apart.

So here I am now, knocking on your door,
and you might ask me, what my visit is for.
I am here to ask forgiveness and to confess to you,
though it may be too late, but still, this I will do.

I know you may not forgive me, nor accept my attempt for romance,
because back then I broke your heart and effectively screw up my chance.
I cannot blame you if you cannot yet forgive me,
I can only blame myself for I did not immediately see.
You are my everything, you're the only remedy to my pain,
And until you're mine again, my life will be an unending rain.


*This poem was an accompaniment to my novelette which was also entitled "Unsaid", rather, it was a poem I wrote to be used in that novelette.

The Silent Martyr

All this feelings I have for you,

I keep them all inside.

I have no intention at all, to ever let you know of them,

Because I know it will make no difference.

Unrequited, that is what my feelings are.

Nothing more, and nothing less.

But I do not hold that in grudge against you,

And not even to the one who holds your heart.

Rather I will not utter one word of it,

Even when the time comes

That my heart will fall and shatter like before.

Like it did for all the other men....

I tell myself, I'm used to it.

Used to my feelings unreturned.

But who am I trying to fool?

Other people might believe it, but not me, not my heart.

And thus is why I keep this all to myself.

Much has happened to me already.

My silence will not be in vain,

Atleast, this is how I console myself.

I am so pathetic, ain't I?

Ruled too much by my own emotions,

They say these could be one's strength,

But why does it seem otherwise for me?...

Perhaps, someday, there will come a time to tell you.

But not now, and I sincerely hope it won't be soon.

Because I see it as irrelevant,

To risk such friendship by such unnecessary episodes.

So my lips will be sealed til that day.

I am in content to just be your friend who cares more than you'll ever know.

I guess, such is the fate of a person

Who is one with Loneliness, itself...

Only You

I've never felt this way before.

Because of you, my heart feels sore.
I don't understand why I feel like this.
How cruel this insane love is.

I feel this way for only you.
It's crazy, and I don't know what to do.
I try to find somebody else,
but it is your name that my heart yells.

I miss you dearly, if you only knew.
No one else had held my heart like you do.
I am incomplete without you here.
You're my missing part, I need you near.

A lot of guys had attempted, they come and go.
But none of them could take away my woe.
It is as if no matter what I try,
I'll still love you as time goes by.

It seems no guy could replace you in my heart,
because I've loved you way back from the start.
So I may not know why, but this, I know, is true,
This foolish heart of mine belongs to only you.

It's still HIM

He was my friend, one dear to my heart.

We've known each other for quite a while now.
We were just comrades, oblivious to Cupid's dart.
But something happened, and I don't know how.

One day, our banters gradually lessened.
All the teasing and playing around, it was so different.
He told me the reason, told me he was smitten.
But I wasn't sure whether his words, he really meant.

I didn't feel the same way back then.
Yet something happened, feelings for him grew.
But I wasn't ready, and I don't even know when.
Now when I think back, I regret the chance I threw.

We don't see each other frequently, so I thought it would fade.
But the more I stayed away, the more I couldn't forget.
To me, the chance of letting go just seems to evade.
While he went on, here I am. Moving on? Not yet.

Though someone else is giving me special attention.
He's still the one, the one I yearn for.
I keep waiting for my fate to change, be in motion,
yet my heart waits for him to come through my door.

And I don't even know why it is him, I fell in love with.
He's not the one whose looks could sweep you off your feet.
Yet no other guy could get these feelings rid.
He's still the one who makes my heart beat.

Trying to forget him is a futile attempt.
Not even his flaws could make my love dim.
From his mistakes, I try to find a way, an exempt.
But I can't escape, 'Coz in my heart, It's still HIM, only HIM.

Falling in Love

There are times when we try to keep ourselves from falling in love with someone who has already captured our attention. It's very difficult, really. It can be likened to hanging onto a lopsided cliff that is pointing downwards. It's like the whole universe conspired together just to make you fall, and you're using all your might just to fight them. Not many succeed in their efforts, because it's just so much easier to let go than to fight a one-sided battle.

But the problem really isn't in the matter of letting the chips fall where they may, it's more on not knowing what lies at the bottom of the cliff. Will there be someone or something to catch you? Or are you going to fall straight into your oblivion?

People don't like being in the dark, they like to know what's on the other side of the ocean before attempting to cross it. They want to see if it's worth the try. They'd rather stay where they are than be subjected to uncertainty. And that's what makes letting go of the cliff a very hard decision.

But if we don't try, how will we ever know? Sometimes this is what changes the minds of people. It is a powerful question that makes the rusty knobs in our minds to turn and start working again. It is what pushes us to take the risk despite not knowing what's in store for us after all this. If we don't try, we will never get anywhere, stuck forever between yesterday and now. As they say, making the first step is equal to finishing half of the way.

So now let us return to the matter at hand: Falling in love.

Loving isn't easy, in fact, it's downright difficult, especially if it's unrequited. It can drive you insane, give you many sleepless nights, and turn you inside-out. But if we trace back to way back when, love has always been this way. And yet many people still take the risk. It might even get us thinking, What is it with love that gives it this kind of power over people? But there is no use of asking such a question, because love has always been one of the words that are most difficult to explain.

There is no case of loving where pain is not involved, because if there has been, that wasn't love at all. No matter how much a couple loves each other, they will hurt each other whether they did it on purpose or not. That's just the way it is. Pain is an inevitable part of loving. So, does that mean that to avoid getting hurt, we must avoid love? There is actually no point in babying ourselves, whether we like it or not, whether we stop it or not, sooner or later, we will still love. That's just the way it is. Even those who grew old but didn't marry have felt love atleast once. No one can escape love. That, too, is inevitable.

The amazing thing about love is that, it, itself can soothe the pain it causes. That is probably why we easily forgive the ones we love even when they've hurt us. Love makes us stronger. It gives us the courage to endure the pain. When a couple truly loves each other, they muster up the courage to fight for their love even when many are against it. That is how powerful love can be.

But what if, as mentions earlier, your love is unrequited?

This kind of love is twice, if not more times, as painful as loving someone who loves you but continues to hurt you. It is when you feel love for someone who doesn't return the feelings. And if you get hurt, there's nothing you can do. You can't even expect the one you love to pick you up when stumble. A tragic story, as some may say, but it happens more often than some may think. So, does that mean that you shouldn't fall in love with someone who doesn't love you? There's really no point. As already said, trying to keep yourself from falling is VERY DIFFICULT. It requires tremendous amounts of effort to control yourself and your feelings. So, before you even try, here are the possible scenarios that could happen if you just let everything unfold by themselves (in short, you fall.):

1. You act like nothing happened, and eventually, nothing does happen, the feeling just fades.

2. You act like nothing happened, but it is, as what we literally call it, an ACT. You pretend like it's nothing, but the feeling gets worse as time goes by.

3. You don't make friends with them, ignore them, and leave everything be, and later on will just fall out of love.

4. You don't make friends with them, ignore them, and leave everything be, but suffer silently in your heart.

5. You immediately tell them how you feel and they turn away.

6. You immediately tell them how you feel, but you only become friends.

7. You immediately tell them how you feel and they tell you that they've been feeling the same way too. (Lucky you.)

8. You befriend them, wait until you become close before telling them how you feel, but they turn away, or an awkwardness settles over your friendship.

9. You befriend them, wait until you become close before telling them how you feel, but you only remain as friends.

10. You befriend them, wait until you become close before telling them how you feel, and they confess that they feel the same for you. (Good for you.)

11. You become close/bestfriends with them, but kept your feelings a secret. You hang out together often and become their closest confidant, but they only see you as a friend. Thus, you got friendzoned.

12. You become close/bestfriends with them, but kept your feelings a secret. You hang out together often and become their closest confidant. Eventually they develop feelings for you. (Happy ending?)

In only three scenarios did you end up with your love being returned. What does that say to you? Does it scream "DON'T FALL IN LOVE!!!"? That's actually not the idea here. The point of showing the scenarios is to tell you that your decisions play a key role in defining what will happen to your future.

Whatever happens, always remember that you shouldn't have any regrets by the end of everything. If there is someone you love, tell them. If that makes you lose the friendship, that's okay. If they do turn away from you, it simply means that they aren't the one for you now or maybe they aren't the one for you ever. The point is, atleast you tried. Atleast now you know what that road had in store. Rather than spending a lifetime regretting that you didn't know what could have happened if you told them what you really feel. There is a saying, "If everyone just said what they thought then there would be a ton more tears, a ton more heartbreaks, and a ton more true loves." Think about it. We regret the things we didn't do more than the things we did do.

That said, don't be afraid to fall in love. It's gonna be crazy, but then again, how can you be old and wise, if you were never young and crazy? There are lots of people out there who will only make you cry, but there exist that person who is worth every tear and hardship. Just don't close your doors to anyone, because who knows when that right one will come knocking on your door? If you are too afraid to take the risk of falling, you may forever lose the chance to finally be with the right person. And really, that is something you would regret for the rest of your life. "Don't go out and search, because you might not find it; Don't sit and wait, because it might not find you; Just go along your path and see what stumbles on your way." So for now, don't worry about it if you fall in love with a lot of wrong people, because the right person will still eventually find his/her way to you anyway. And that person wouldn't care about who you used to be, who you've been with and what you've done, because all he/she would care about is your now and the tomorrow that you will be spending together. You just have to wait. Wait and not worry about making lots of mistakes, because when it really counts, these mistakes will be the ones that shape you into the person you are to be. Don't regret them because they are a part of who you are, and who you are is exactly how that right one will love you.

Everything we do, everything we feel, and everything we go through, has a purpose. We may not know those purposes now, but later on, they will reveal themselves to us. All questions in your life will be answered in due time. So, for now, learn from all the mistakes you've made, but don't let them keep you from moving forward and finding out what they all happened for. It doesn't matter how many times you failed in love, who you'll be spending the rest of your life with is what really counts. Love a lot, even if you get hurt a lot as well, because it will all be worth it in the end.

How long?

How many more poems would I have to write for you?

I can't get you out of my mind, that sure is true.

I wish writing all of this would soon help me forget.

So that despite your proximity, i no longer have to fret.

How many more dreams do you have to star in?

I don't even know how long it's been.

I've felt this way for quite a while now.

I wish I could move on, but I don't know how.

How many more times do I have to get lost in thought?

Oh, what a predicament, to me you've brought!

Shall I be like this a bit longer?

They'd think, by now, I'd be stronger.

How long shall you hold me captive?

What is it that I have to give?

For me to be free from this, oh, so painful misery,

of wanting to have you, a downright impossibility.

How long? I need to know.

How long? 'Coz it hurts me so.

I surely can't wait for that day,

so I could finally go my own way.

Loving you

I can't explain how I feel,

but I know that the pain is too real.

I can't fathom why,

but this feeling makes me want to cry.

I never should've believed,

now this pain I have to heave.

You liking me was never possible.

I can't believe I ever thought it was plausible.

The pain I feel now is incredibly crushing.

How stupid I was for misunderstanding.

It really hurts to feel this way,

and I don't know when I'll ever be okay.

Why I fell for you is not a mystery,

but I never thought it would cause me much misery.

Loving someone has never caused me much pain.

And to think, from loving you, this is all I could gain.

So I don't know why else I can't let go,

when in fact you've caused me much woe.

And there is nothing that I could do,

to stop myself from loving you.

You are in love

If you were to choose between 3 doors, each having a different color, and each leading to different paths. What would you choose? Perhaps, you would find it hard to decide, but that is normal, because no one could be entirely sure of what path he/she should take.

There are a lot of things in this world that we are unsure of. That's why we-as we think we could map out our lives-often make assumptions long before the finale even makes its first marker. That's just the way we are, it's just how we prepare ourselves for any kind of incident that we might come upon in life.

So then, the question arises. What must we do in a situation given many choices to choose from?

Simple, just do what your mind and your heart tells you to do. In chances of a dichotomous situation, then decide for yourself what you think is the best path to take. And don't regret your decision because it may have failed you at first but it will play a much bigger role in the future.

Why am I saying all of these? Because i want you to get a good look at life the way it is, before we move on to a much complicated aspect of it. Which aspect, you ask? Oh, nothing that you haven't experienced yet. Just Love.

LOVE, what a simple word, isn't it? Yet, simple as it is, it's practically almost indefinable. Yes, indefinable, because whatever we say about love is never really sure. It can be true for one person and utterly false for the other.

So, what about love can we be sure of? Almost nothing, right? But this, I can say is true, when you've felt it, it'll change you forever. Although not the whole of you, but surely, a part of you-no matter how big or how small it is-has changed.

So, when can we say that we're in love?

There is practically no way to be absolutely sure, but there are pointers on how to see a glimpse of the existence of your feelings:

1.       You'll know you have feelings for him/her, if you find yourself wanting to see him/her every day.

2.       You almost never get bored of him/her, and even in silence, you are content just being with him/her.

3.       You don't feel the need to impress him/her, and you feel easy being with him/her because you can be yourself.

4.       Being away from each other doesn't lessen your longing for him/her. And when you finally see him/her again, it was as if he/she was never away in the first place.

5.       No matter how angry you are at him/her, you always find yourself forgiving him/her, even when you said you wouldn't.

6.       (If you're together) when you have quarrels with him/her, though you are so mad, the idea of a break-up still repulses you.

7.       Whenever you think of the future ahead of you, (woman) you often see yourself arm-in-arm with your mother and father, walking together toward the altar, and him waiting as you cross the distance between the two of you. (man) you see yourself dressed in white, and smiling triumphantly at her as she and her parents walk up toward the altar so her parents could give their daughter's hand to you.

8.       You wish that time won't pass when you're together, hoping to lengthen the moment.

9.       You're willing to suffer in his/her place. And you're willing to fight for him/her, if the need arises.

10.   A kiss from him/her is enough to make your day.

11.   You can't imagine your life without him anymore, and if you do, you find the idea repulsive.

12.   You'd rather spend a day with him/her than an eternity with someone else.

Those are only some pointers, and they are not always true for everyone, but one thing I can say, when you fall in love, you just fall. You don't need to expend much effort for it to happen. The feeling is magical. But when the magic fades out and you find yourself choosing to love even when you don't feel like doing it, then you can say that you're experiencing true love. Because true love can only happen after you've fallen in and out of love, and continue to love without prompt. That's true love. So, when you start to feel these, my friend, truly, you are in love.

Love: Through the eyes of a teenager

Some people think that loving is easy. But I wonder, these people, do they even know what they’re saying? Do they even have the right to say such things? I mean, have they ever been in love anyway? I think not, because if they’ve ever been in love, once upon a time, they would never even dare to say that loving is easy.

Yes, loving is easy, in terms of giving love, but in terms of trying to take it back? It’ll probably be as hard as finding a needle in a haystack. Possible but difficult and time-consuming, unless someone comes along, and helps you find it.

The most common dilemma nowadays, for teens like me, is falling in love. Everyone is bound to fall in love, but it’s not guaranteed that everyone will have a happy ending with the one they truly love. There’s always a hindrance. Like in my friends’ situations, their families resent the relationships they have, which is the most probable cause of break-ups and heartbreaks.

But I’m pretty sure that even adults have the same dilemma, not only teens. I mean, we probably won’t even exist if it weren’t for our parent’s love for each other. And I’m sure everyone wishes to find that person that God made especially for us. We just have to wait, like in fishing, cast the bait, wait for a bite, then pull it in with proper timing!

Lost Chance

There he was, standing proud and tall.

Yet, between us, there is an invisible wall.
How I wish I could talk to him and say,
That even at night, he shines like the day.

He sat directly across from me, at the table.
I would have spoken to him, had I been able.
It was like fate had played with me,
That table wasn't where i was supposed to be.

I secretly peek at him, from the corner of my eye,
His handsome visage is the cause of my sigh.
If only I didn't have to stay away from him,
Then maybe right now, I wouldn't be so grim.

many times, my heart debated with my mind.
If only time I could rewind....
So that I could have asked you without much difficulty,
to have a visible memory taken of you and me.

Who is now the one with regrets?
Who is now the one who frets?
The chance that I did not take,
Had left my heart discontented in its wake.

Now I blame myself for the lost chance,
because all I could do was stare at your stance.
I guess.. a coward is what i must be called,
For the chance of which I failed to take hold.