Through it All

You and I have been together for so long,
and throughout our journey, many things have gone wrong,
yet here we are, still together, still standing strong in this fight,
because all else could go wrong, but we know our love is right.

So many have said that we won't make it through.
So many doubted us, didn't think this we could do.
But they saw what we did, we proved to everyone we could last
in this world that we are in, where things come and go so fast.

Though we argue so often, I know we'd still be together,
because you and I know that we must give up never.
So we need not always see eye to eye on everything with each other,
because though we're different, we do complement one another.

I know sometimes I say I no longer feel loved by you.
But I realized that was wrong, because love me is all you ever do.
You cared for me like no one ever had.
So I'm sorry for those times that I doubted and got mad.

So, my love, you know by now, that I easily get pissed,
and I'm really sorry for the bad qualities of which I consist.
And I'm really thankful that you do try to be patient with me,
I really do appreciate, though you may not always see.

I do hope that you and I will never forget
all our memories together, though there's more to come yet.
And I do hope also that you will always remember,
that though I am like this, I do love you for forever.

Beautiful

It's beautiful.
The star-filled sky is
more magnificent than what the eye could ever behold.
Scattered
Uneven
Disarrayed
There seems
no rhyme
nor reason
with the way it is arranged.
but there need not be.
it is
As it always had been
and always will be
Beautiful.


-September 2015

To Summer

I'm falling apart.
Because now, all I have is
A cloudless sky.
A soundless tune.
A flightless bird.
Why'd you have to sing my swan song?

But perhaps he's right.
"You push away everyone who could possibly care for you."
Maybe this was my fault.
Maybe I dug my own grave.
Maybe I sang my own swan song.

But it's almost over.
Now it's time to begin again.
Soon the music will play.
Soon the birds will fly.
Soon the sun will shine.
Because very soon, Summer will be here again.

If I had met you...

If I had met you first,
Do you think we could have been together?
Would you have been the one with me now?
Would we have lasted this long?

If I had met you then,
Would we have noticed each other?
Would we be close friends like now?
Would I have liked you the same way as I do now?

If I had met you before her,
Would you have liked me the way you like her?
Would you have courted me the way you did to her?
Would I have been the one in your heart instead?

If I had met you before him,
Would I have fallen for you?
Would I not care about him at all?
Would I have no regrets?

A heart's contemplation

How could I ever put my feelings into words from this mindframe,
When I know full well that you don't and won't ever feel the same?
Tell me what am I to do?
When lately my every dream consists of you.

How am I supposed to feel?
When I don't know anymore what's real..
I keep saying I will cut the ties,
But even to me, they all sound like lies.

My feelings for you have been subtly growing,
All these have happened without me even knowing.
Now how to cut the plant that has blossomed into a tree?
Cut the roots, but now that seems too much for me.

Tell me why you have to act like this?
Why do you always shower me with your sweetness?
You make me long to be the one in your heart,
But I know that I could never play that part..

You do so many things that lead my feelings on.
But I know in truth, that you are just like the Sun.
Too hot to touch, too far to reach.
I'd only get burnt if I continue to beseech.

And I know I must stop this, but I have no idea how.
All I know is I'd sink deeper if I don't do it now.
So I have this request for you that I really want to ask.
Could you please help me put this love for you to finally rest in the past?..