Heart Speaks First

Meaning what you say
Saying what you mean
We both know they’re two different things.

What your mouth says
What your hearts speaks
You say they’re different, but how will I ever know?

You push me away
You tell me you need me
What am I supposed to do?

You’re telling me not to let it all slip away
You’re telling me to not believe all you say
But how would I know what to believe when it’s all a mess?
I can’t just believe some words and disregard the rest.

You say we’re a team even when it hurts.
Saying your words don’t mean as much as what your heart exerts.
It isn’t a good distinction.
No, we can’t stay in this confusion.

To stay together, we’re bound to get hurt sometimes,
Don’t say you don’t mean the words, don’t say they’re just lies.
Sometimes I will get hurt, you will too, but we will learn to be better.
Know that loving won’t work if we can’t be honest with each other.

From Me to Thee

My heart I bequeath to thee

and pray someday thou wilt show me fancy

but if she hath thy heart, and it cannot be made mine

I say to thee, though it pains me so, my heart will still be thine.

This milady longs to be thy maiden fair;

Longs to shower thee with love and care.

In thine arms this one seeks to find and have a home

Lest thou not allow it so, then this lady shalt keep roam.

My heart is thine I hath said to thee

My eyes see no other man for this milady.

But perhaps thereth someone else as I walk forth

Perhaps someone else shalt capture this maiden heart.

So with a smile and a hood for the long run

This lady shalt walk on until this journey is done.

My heart I shalt for now leave with thee

Until its rightful King claimeth it for me.

A heart's contemplation

How could I ever put my feelings into words from this mindframe,
When I know full well that you don't and won't ever feel the same?
Tell me what am I to do?
When lately my every dream consists of you.

How am I supposed to feel?
When I don't know anymore what's real..
I keep saying I will cut the ties,
But even to me, they all sound like lies.

My feelings for you have been subtly growing,
All these have happened without me even knowing.
Now how to cut the plant that has blossomed into a tree?
Cut the roots, but now that seems too much for me.

Tell me why you have to act like this?
Why do you always shower me with your sweetness?
You make me long to be the one in your heart,
But I know that I could never play that part..

You do so many things that lead my feelings on.
But I know in truth, that you are just like the Sun.
Too hot to touch, too far to reach.
I'd only get burnt if I continue to beseech.

And I know I must stop this, but I have no idea how.
All I know is I'd sink deeper if I don't do it now.
So I have this request for you that I really want to ask.
Could you please help me put this love for you to finally rest in the past?..

Presence

You're confusing me
Spinning me around like a top;
You keep me from careening off the palm of your hands
captivated
entrapped
imprisoned
by this situation.
by you.

I am on my toes
eager for the next exchange
I await it so fervently,
but patiently
It consumes the unfilled spaces
in my thoughts
in my heart
in my life
now there is a presence.
now there is you.