Only Friends

The hardest part of falling for a friend
Is that you can't really tell,
In fear of losing the friendship,
In fear of jeopardizing everything.

But yes, it is good to be close to the one you adore.
I can spend time and talk without making up excuses to do so.
And can ask you many things under the pretense of friendship,
All these, others could only hope for.

I asked you one time,
The things you seek for in a girl.
Much to my chagrin, I am way beyond what captures you.
It is way beyond my reach.

And then after some time, I mustered up the courage to ask
Who the lucky girl is, the one who caught your fancy.
But then again, I knew, before I even asked,
it could never be me, and I was right.

And thus is why I wonder
Do you not even notice?
Do you not realize why I'm so curious?
Because I think the answer is obvious.

What does she have that I don't?
No, what do they have that I don't?
But who am kidding?
I already know the answer.

And though I know I am not really lacking..
Yes, I'm not perfect, but I still am very eligible.
And yet, despite that, I see myself as insignificant.
Because nearly all my endeavors have been fruitless.

You are not the first, and probably not the last.
Again, my heart has been broken,
because I am not up to what you seek.
Why, I always ask, must I be subjected to this fate?

I'm sorry I don't have the qualities you like,
I'm sorry I'm not what you're looking for.
I guess I never can be the apple of your eye.
But atleast in my dreams, you are mine.