Falling in Love

There are times when we try to keep ourselves from falling in love with someone who has already captured our attention. It's very difficult, really. It can be likened to hanging onto a lopsided cliff that is pointing downwards. It's like the whole universe conspired together just to make you fall, and you're using all your might just to fight them. Not many succeed in their efforts, because it's just so much easier to let go than to fight a one-sided battle.

But the problem really isn't in the matter of letting the chips fall where they may, it's more on not knowing what lies at the bottom of the cliff. Will there be someone or something to catch you? Or are you going to fall straight into your oblivion?

People don't like being in the dark, they like to know what's on the other side of the ocean before attempting to cross it. They want to see if it's worth the try. They'd rather stay where they are than be subjected to uncertainty. And that's what makes letting go of the cliff a very hard decision.

But if we don't try, how will we ever know? Sometimes this is what changes the minds of people. It is a powerful question that makes the rusty knobs in our minds to turn and start working again. It is what pushes us to take the risk despite not knowing what's in store for us after all this. If we don't try, we will never get anywhere, stuck forever between yesterday and now. As they say, making the first step is equal to finishing half of the way.

So now let us return to the matter at hand: Falling in love.

Loving isn't easy, in fact, it's downright difficult, especially if it's unrequited. It can drive you insane, give you many sleepless nights, and turn you inside-out. But if we trace back to way back when, love has always been this way. And yet many people still take the risk. It might even get us thinking, What is it with love that gives it this kind of power over people? But there is no use of asking such a question, because love has always been one of the words that are most difficult to explain.

There is no case of loving where pain is not involved, because if there has been, that wasn't love at all. No matter how much a couple loves each other, they will hurt each other whether they did it on purpose or not. That's just the way it is. Pain is an inevitable part of loving. So, does that mean that to avoid getting hurt, we must avoid love? There is actually no point in babying ourselves, whether we like it or not, whether we stop it or not, sooner or later, we will still love. That's just the way it is. Even those who grew old but didn't marry have felt love atleast once. No one can escape love. That, too, is inevitable.

The amazing thing about love is that, it, itself can soothe the pain it causes. That is probably why we easily forgive the ones we love even when they've hurt us. Love makes us stronger. It gives us the courage to endure the pain. When a couple truly loves each other, they muster up the courage to fight for their love even when many are against it. That is how powerful love can be.

But what if, as mentions earlier, your love is unrequited?

This kind of love is twice, if not more times, as painful as loving someone who loves you but continues to hurt you. It is when you feel love for someone who doesn't return the feelings. And if you get hurt, there's nothing you can do. You can't even expect the one you love to pick you up when stumble. A tragic story, as some may say, but it happens more often than some may think. So, does that mean that you shouldn't fall in love with someone who doesn't love you? There's really no point. As already said, trying to keep yourself from falling is VERY DIFFICULT. It requires tremendous amounts of effort to control yourself and your feelings. So, before you even try, here are the possible scenarios that could happen if you just let everything unfold by themselves (in short, you fall.):

1. You act like nothing happened, and eventually, nothing does happen, the feeling just fades.

2. You act like nothing happened, but it is, as what we literally call it, an ACT. You pretend like it's nothing, but the feeling gets worse as time goes by.

3. You don't make friends with them, ignore them, and leave everything be, and later on will just fall out of love.

4. You don't make friends with them, ignore them, and leave everything be, but suffer silently in your heart.

5. You immediately tell them how you feel and they turn away.

6. You immediately tell them how you feel, but you only become friends.

7. You immediately tell them how you feel and they tell you that they've been feeling the same way too. (Lucky you.)

8. You befriend them, wait until you become close before telling them how you feel, but they turn away, or an awkwardness settles over your friendship.

9. You befriend them, wait until you become close before telling them how you feel, but you only remain as friends.

10. You befriend them, wait until you become close before telling them how you feel, and they confess that they feel the same for you. (Good for you.)

11. You become close/bestfriends with them, but kept your feelings a secret. You hang out together often and become their closest confidant, but they only see you as a friend. Thus, you got friendzoned.

12. You become close/bestfriends with them, but kept your feelings a secret. You hang out together often and become their closest confidant. Eventually they develop feelings for you. (Happy ending?)

In only three scenarios did you end up with your love being returned. What does that say to you? Does it scream "DON'T FALL IN LOVE!!!"? That's actually not the idea here. The point of showing the scenarios is to tell you that your decisions play a key role in defining what will happen to your future.

Whatever happens, always remember that you shouldn't have any regrets by the end of everything. If there is someone you love, tell them. If that makes you lose the friendship, that's okay. If they do turn away from you, it simply means that they aren't the one for you now or maybe they aren't the one for you ever. The point is, atleast you tried. Atleast now you know what that road had in store. Rather than spending a lifetime regretting that you didn't know what could have happened if you told them what you really feel. There is a saying, "If everyone just said what they thought then there would be a ton more tears, a ton more heartbreaks, and a ton more true loves." Think about it. We regret the things we didn't do more than the things we did do.

That said, don't be afraid to fall in love. It's gonna be crazy, but then again, how can you be old and wise, if you were never young and crazy? There are lots of people out there who will only make you cry, but there exist that person who is worth every tear and hardship. Just don't close your doors to anyone, because who knows when that right one will come knocking on your door? If you are too afraid to take the risk of falling, you may forever lose the chance to finally be with the right person. And really, that is something you would regret for the rest of your life. "Don't go out and search, because you might not find it; Don't sit and wait, because it might not find you; Just go along your path and see what stumbles on your way." So for now, don't worry about it if you fall in love with a lot of wrong people, because the right person will still eventually find his/her way to you anyway. And that person wouldn't care about who you used to be, who you've been with and what you've done, because all he/she would care about is your now and the tomorrow that you will be spending together. You just have to wait. Wait and not worry about making lots of mistakes, because when it really counts, these mistakes will be the ones that shape you into the person you are to be. Don't regret them because they are a part of who you are, and who you are is exactly how that right one will love you.

Everything we do, everything we feel, and everything we go through, has a purpose. We may not know those purposes now, but later on, they will reveal themselves to us. All questions in your life will be answered in due time. So, for now, learn from all the mistakes you've made, but don't let them keep you from moving forward and finding out what they all happened for. It doesn't matter how many times you failed in love, who you'll be spending the rest of your life with is what really counts. Love a lot, even if you get hurt a lot as well, because it will all be worth it in the end.

How long?

How many more poems would I have to write for you?

I can't get you out of my mind, that sure is true.

I wish writing all of this would soon help me forget.

So that despite your proximity, i no longer have to fret.

How many more dreams do you have to star in?

I don't even know how long it's been.

I've felt this way for quite a while now.

I wish I could move on, but I don't know how.

How many more times do I have to get lost in thought?

Oh, what a predicament, to me you've brought!

Shall I be like this a bit longer?

They'd think, by now, I'd be stronger.

How long shall you hold me captive?

What is it that I have to give?

For me to be free from this, oh, so painful misery,

of wanting to have you, a downright impossibility.

How long? I need to know.

How long? 'Coz it hurts me so.

I surely can't wait for that day,

so I could finally go my own way.

Loving you

I can't explain how I feel,

but I know that the pain is too real.

I can't fathom why,

but this feeling makes me want to cry.

I never should've believed,

now this pain I have to heave.

You liking me was never possible.

I can't believe I ever thought it was plausible.

The pain I feel now is incredibly crushing.

How stupid I was for misunderstanding.

It really hurts to feel this way,

and I don't know when I'll ever be okay.

Why I fell for you is not a mystery,

but I never thought it would cause me much misery.

Loving someone has never caused me much pain.

And to think, from loving you, this is all I could gain.

So I don't know why else I can't let go,

when in fact you've caused me much woe.

And there is nothing that I could do,

to stop myself from loving you.

Just for one day

I want to be your only princess,

I want you to pick me from the rest.

I want you to make me feel that way,

will you? even for just a day.

I want you to sweep me off my feet.

I want you to kiss me in the middle of the street.

I want you to hold me, if you may.

will you? it's just for one day.

I want to get lost in your arms.

I want to be caught by your charms.

I want to be beside you and stay.

is it ok? it'd be just for today.

I want to stare at your handsome face.

I want you to make my heart race.

I want you to make my day more than okay.

only these I have, and not just for one day.

You are in love

If you were to choose between 3 doors, each having a different color, and each leading to different paths. What would you choose? Perhaps, you would find it hard to decide, but that is normal, because no one could be entirely sure of what path he/she should take.

There are a lot of things in this world that we are unsure of. That's why we-as we think we could map out our lives-often make assumptions long before the finale even makes its first marker. That's just the way we are, it's just how we prepare ourselves for any kind of incident that we might come upon in life.

So then, the question arises. What must we do in a situation given many choices to choose from?

Simple, just do what your mind and your heart tells you to do. In chances of a dichotomous situation, then decide for yourself what you think is the best path to take. And don't regret your decision because it may have failed you at first but it will play a much bigger role in the future.

Why am I saying all of these? Because i want you to get a good look at life the way it is, before we move on to a much complicated aspect of it. Which aspect, you ask? Oh, nothing that you haven't experienced yet. Just Love.

LOVE, what a simple word, isn't it? Yet, simple as it is, it's practically almost indefinable. Yes, indefinable, because whatever we say about love is never really sure. It can be true for one person and utterly false for the other.

So, what about love can we be sure of? Almost nothing, right? But this, I can say is true, when you've felt it, it'll change you forever. Although not the whole of you, but surely, a part of you-no matter how big or how small it is-has changed.

So, when can we say that we're in love?

There is practically no way to be absolutely sure, but there are pointers on how to see a glimpse of the existence of your feelings:

1.       You'll know you have feelings for him/her, if you find yourself wanting to see him/her every day.

2.       You almost never get bored of him/her, and even in silence, you are content just being with him/her.

3.       You don't feel the need to impress him/her, and you feel easy being with him/her because you can be yourself.

4.       Being away from each other doesn't lessen your longing for him/her. And when you finally see him/her again, it was as if he/she was never away in the first place.

5.       No matter how angry you are at him/her, you always find yourself forgiving him/her, even when you said you wouldn't.

6.       (If you're together) when you have quarrels with him/her, though you are so mad, the idea of a break-up still repulses you.

7.       Whenever you think of the future ahead of you, (woman) you often see yourself arm-in-arm with your mother and father, walking together toward the altar, and him waiting as you cross the distance between the two of you. (man) you see yourself dressed in white, and smiling triumphantly at her as she and her parents walk up toward the altar so her parents could give their daughter's hand to you.

8.       You wish that time won't pass when you're together, hoping to lengthen the moment.

9.       You're willing to suffer in his/her place. And you're willing to fight for him/her, if the need arises.

10.   A kiss from him/her is enough to make your day.

11.   You can't imagine your life without him anymore, and if you do, you find the idea repulsive.

12.   You'd rather spend a day with him/her than an eternity with someone else.

Those are only some pointers, and they are not always true for everyone, but one thing I can say, when you fall in love, you just fall. You don't need to expend much effort for it to happen. The feeling is magical. But when the magic fades out and you find yourself choosing to love even when you don't feel like doing it, then you can say that you're experiencing true love. Because true love can only happen after you've fallen in and out of love, and continue to love without prompt. That's true love. So, when you start to feel these, my friend, truly, you are in love.

Amidst a Girl’s Complexity

                We all know that boys and girls have different personalities. They each have different sets of likes and dislikes, although there are some chances in where they have something in common, these things would usually be unnoticeable.

                Most of the male species would say that girls are complicated creatures, well, that’s 100% true. Females are full of perplexing traits, but then again, so are the males, for that fact. Boys almost never understand why a girl easily gets pissed for an unknown reason or why most girls would take practically an hour or more in the bathroom.

                So, what are the reasons for these intricacies?

                The truth is, there is no exact answer. In order for one to comprehend a girl’s undeterminable personality, one must learn to understand. A simple task that could make a big difference.

                Girls easily get pissed or hurt because they have very sensitive feelings. Even just a single word can turn their whole world topsy-turvy, whereas guys usually act like it’s nothing at all to them, because guys usually have that “come what may” attitude that protects them from such pain. Girls tend to get too involved with their feelings, which is why they usually end up getting hurt badly.  Although there are some girls who play with the guys’ feelings, but they only do that to prevent themselves from ending up getting hurt.

                Girls aren’t really that complicated to understand when you’re a girl yourself, but to a guy, well ,yes it is quite difficult, but the feeling is mutual. Girls also don’t always understand guys, it just so happens that they try to do something about it, while guys just let it pass off. So, think of this the next time you think that a girl is so complicated. Some girls, knowing that people won’t really bother to try understanding them, just prefer to envelop their personalities with intricacies, because it’s what keeps them off-bay from too much pain.Want to be opened up to by them? Show them that you won't hurt them, and even if you do, you're ready to wipe their tears for them.

The Tears Behind the Smiles

Behind every smile I project are the tears that have been waiting to fall ever since.

In this generation, a genuine smile would hardly be seen among the youth, because each smile that we fake prefigures the pain that we’ve gone through and the tears that we hold back.

So why do we fake our smiles when we can just cry out our pain?

Because some things are hard to understand, and SMILING when we’re hurt is the easiest way to say, “I’m tired of explaining.”

We choose to smile even though it hurts. We want to cry but we can’t because we want to show that we can manage. Everyone has problems, but not everyone has a shoulder to cry on. Not everyone has a person to run to. We all get hurt, but we don’t always show it. Why? Because we know that not everyone can understand the reason why. So when there’s no one to understand us but ourselves, the only thing we can do is to hide the tears we ought to shed.

Love: Through the eyes of a teenager

Some people think that loving is easy. But I wonder, these people, do they even know what they’re saying? Do they even have the right to say such things? I mean, have they ever been in love anyway? I think not, because if they’ve ever been in love, once upon a time, they would never even dare to say that loving is easy.

Yes, loving is easy, in terms of giving love, but in terms of trying to take it back? It’ll probably be as hard as finding a needle in a haystack. Possible but difficult and time-consuming, unless someone comes along, and helps you find it.

The most common dilemma nowadays, for teens like me, is falling in love. Everyone is bound to fall in love, but it’s not guaranteed that everyone will have a happy ending with the one they truly love. There’s always a hindrance. Like in my friends’ situations, their families resent the relationships they have, which is the most probable cause of break-ups and heartbreaks.

But I’m pretty sure that even adults have the same dilemma, not only teens. I mean, we probably won’t even exist if it weren’t for our parent’s love for each other. And I’m sure everyone wishes to find that person that God made especially for us. We just have to wait, like in fishing, cast the bait, wait for a bite, then pull it in with proper timing!

Lost Chance

There he was, standing proud and tall.

Yet, between us, there is an invisible wall.
How I wish I could talk to him and say,
That even at night, he shines like the day.

He sat directly across from me, at the table.
I would have spoken to him, had I been able.
It was like fate had played with me,
That table wasn't where i was supposed to be.

I secretly peek at him, from the corner of my eye,
His handsome visage is the cause of my sigh.
If only I didn't have to stay away from him,
Then maybe right now, I wouldn't be so grim.

many times, my heart debated with my mind.
If only time I could rewind....
So that I could have asked you without much difficulty,
to have a visible memory taken of you and me.

Who is now the one with regrets?
Who is now the one who frets?
The chance that I did not take,
Had left my heart discontented in its wake.

Now I blame myself for the lost chance,
because all I could do was stare at your stance.
I guess.. a coward is what i must be called,
For the chance of which I failed to take hold.

Falling in Love Again

Was it all by coincidence,

that you've managed to cross my fence?
For you, why'd I let myself fall?
When you don't feel anything for me at all.

Why'd you have to be so friendly?
Because of that, I fell so quickly.
But your friendliness seems like an illusion,
And it's the source of my heart's confusion.

Now, I'm often lost in thought.
So many feelings inside of me have fought.
I've tried to stop it and harden my heart.
But how? When I've been shot by Cupid's dart.

Despite what act I put on and try,
My feelings for you, I just can no longer deny.
I don't even know who I'm trying to fool.
Oh, truly, loving you is just so cruel.

Still, I won't let the chips fall where they may.
I'll still hide what I could, but I guess this I have to say,
I didn't know that I still possibly can,
Yet there's nothing I could do, 'coz I'm falling in love again.

Enjoy the Ride

Time is ticking,

We're almost done.

I've been thinking,

I should just have fun.

Savor the feeling,

just stay for a while.

Stop the tormenting,

make it worthwhile.

Don't worry too much,

it won't be a gamble.

Don't think about such,

it won't cause trouble.

Just be happy,

this is my last chance.

Don't think it's crappy,

treasure the last dance.

It won't be for long,

It won't change my side.

Throughout the song,

I should just enjoy the ride!

Almost There

Tall and slender, a perfect figure.

Skin so fair, so white, so pure.
With that face akin to an angel,
He's the image of a male model.

Hair so soft to touch, so marvelous.
Eyes, so mesmerizing, you could get lost.
Physically, he's got everything, and needs nothing more.
He looks perfect, no matter what clothes he wore.

When he speaks to me, it's like music to my ears.
He's so interesting, i babble about him to my peers.
I could gaze at him all day, and still I'd never get tired.
His very presence alone could make me inspired.

I have dreams of him almost every night.
And to my eyes, he shines with so much light.
A being carved with so much precision,
He could've been my idea of perfection.

He lacks little, as far as I can see.
He's almost perfect, and I bet he could be.
I know he could, he's almost there.
Just a little more, that's if he should dare.

But it doesn't matter that he isn't exactly perfect,
Because he'd still make others seem like a wreck.
He's almost everything I've been dreaming of,
But it's just too bad he is not mine to love...

Invisible

I long to be that girl,

That girl which is your dream.

I wish I could know how it feels,

How it feels to be your queen.

But then I also wish not,

Wish not to be your eve.

For I already love another,

Another that I could not leave.

My heart is faithful to my man,

My man who loves me for whoever I may be.

But my eyes cannot help but drift off,

Off to you, to whom I am just an invisible lady.

I just can't help but wonder,

Wonder why I feel this way.

When in fact, you do not notice,

Notice how you can make my day.

You might be the cause of ruin,

Ruin of my wonderful lover.

So it's better if I stay away,

Away, and invisible, to show care, I must never.

Goodbye

You don’t know how long I’ve been feeling this.

You don’t know how long I’ve been wanting to tell you.

It’s crazy, but, you, I just can’t resist.

But I must, ‘Coz it’s the right thing to do.

And I wrote a poem just for you,

‘Coz I can’t tell you directly how I feel.

To give it to you is what I must do.

So that I can finally move on, for real.

Though it took me an awful lot of time,

Though I kept backing out of many chances,

Though it was a tough and painful climb,

I finally did something more than just glances.

So it is done,

And so it shall be.

There’s nothing else to do but run,

‘Coz your reaction I don’t want to see.

I was expecting to feel relief solely,

Yet there is sadness, and I know the reason why.

This is the end of our yet-to-start story.

This is my GOODBYE…

Don't

Don’t be so friendly with me,

‘Coz you’re making me fall.

Don’t come near me constantly,

‘Coz I know it doesn’t mean anything else.

Don’t make my heart race,

‘Coz I know you don’t feel the same.

Don’t make me feel the signs,

‘Coz I know you can’t possibly like me.

Don’t make me feel special,

‘Coz I’m just another girl who happens to be a friend.

Don’t look at me like I’m the prettiest girl in the world,

‘Coz I know that’s not how you see me.

Don’t talk to me like I’m so interesting,

‘Coz I blabber a lot of unnecessary stuff.

Don’t look into my eyes with your mesmerizing ones,

‘Coz I might not remember my own name.

Don’t smile at me like the way you do,

‘Coz you’re making me lose my willpower.

Don’t tell me “I love you”,

‘Coz I know it’s just a joke.

Don’t say things to me like I’m beautiful,

‘Coz that can’t possibly be true.

Don’t ever hold my hand,

‘Coz I know you’ll just let go.

Don’t ask me what my problem is,

‘Coz I can’t tell the truth that it’s you.

Don’t lead me on,

‘Coz I know it’s a dead end.

Don’t make me hope,

‘Coz I don’t wanna hope in vain.

Don’t act like you could actually fall in love with me,

‘Coz I know it’ll never happen.

Raindrops of my Heart

You are like a faraway dream to me.

a being, almost perfect, but I didn't notice until lately.

It took some time before my heart found you,

but ever since it did, my heart had been so blue.

I couldn't keep myself from falling,

'Coz the words you've spoken had left my heart hoping.

Yet I know it is all in vain.

From loving you, there could only be rain.

You've brought to me so much sadness.

What I wouldn't give to finally escape this madness.

To think that it used to be just nothing.

Now it is too much, my heart is hurting.

It would have been more bearable, had I not been so foolish.

It could end differently, if I dare the pride I cherish.

But I cannot, why dare for a lost cause?

When I already know what happens before the "because".

My heart is deeply submerged in this sorrow.

You'd think everyone would've noticed, but No.

They don't see how much you've played a part,

in causing all the raindrops of my broken heart.

Through my eyes

Your eyes twinkle when you look at me.

It seems that there is nothing else you’d rather do.

It occurred to me why you always look,

But maybe it is only I who think too much of it.

Your smile says a lot, yet hides so much from me.

And when you held my hand back then,

I felt like maybe you do feel the same way,

But that is something I could never be sure of.

You’ve awoken feelings deep inside of me that had long been in deep slumber.

Is it really just my imagination?,

Or could you possibly consider me special to you?

But I can’t really summon up the courage to ask you outright.

I could talk to you all day, and still I wouldn’t get tired.

And sometimes it seems like you could too.

Sometimes it seems like you’d want nothing else than to be with me,

But I’m probably delusional, things like these can’ be real.

I’ve sensed some signs which point to yes,

It seem s like you might actually be harboring feelings for me,

Just as I am hiding what I feel for you,

But all those signs could merely be a coincidence.

Your proximity makes me hyper-aware.

Sometimes it seems like you might actually return my feelings,

But all of this I notice might just be overstretched versions of the truth,

And they only seem as they are, because I see them through my eyes.

Can't be ME

Someday, you’re gonna belong to someone.

Someday, you’d feel like a lottery you’ve won.

Someday, someone will make you smile.

Someday, towards you, that someone will walk the aisle.

Someday, you’ll hold her in your arms.

Someday, you don’t even have to turn on the charms.

Someday, you’ll love her with all your heart.

Someday, you’ll wish you’d never part.

Someday, you’re gonna claim her lips.

Someday, you’d get lost in thought as you dance, holding her hips.

Someday, no one can make you happy more than she.

Someday, she’s all of what your dreamgirl could ever be.

Someday, you’ll open every door just for her.

Someday, you’d love her no matter what will occur.

Someday, you’d go down on one knee.

Someday, your wife, you’d ask her to be.

Someday, for her, you’ll want  to be a better man.

Someday, you’ll cross everything just to be with her, if you can.

Someday, she’ll be that someone you’ve been waiting to see.

And I know someday, she’s that someone that can't ever be ME.

Unrequited

Seeing him makes your heart flutter, 

he can even make you speak with a stutter. 
Just a sight of him can brighten you up, 
Your trail of thoughts suddenly gets disrupted.

Your eyes can't help but stray to his. 
Him, you just cannot resist. 
Though you know it's not right anymore, 
For him, through any barricades you'd tore.

Your heart aches for him constantly. 
How you wish he'd look at you and see. 
How you wish he'd feel the same way, 
say he loves you, right out of the grey.

When you see him happy with someone else, 
you immediately feel how your sadness wells. 
You pity yourself for being a fool, 
but still you act like everything's cool.

He constantly invades your dreams, 
Which nevertheless could make you cry in streams, 
because your dreams will always be just that, 
They will never reach the realistic path.

Why can't you see? 
What you want shall never be. 
You should just get over your foolishness instead, 
because your love for him will always be unrequited.

Dreams

He looks at me with fervor, 

much to my delight and favor. 
He says my name like a caress. 
To him, I am the dearest. 

He talks to me all the time, 
you'd think it's practically a crime. 
He holds my hand and tells me, 
"You're my everything, and forever you shall be." 

He waits for me after class, 
until he finally sees me at last. 
He pulls me in for an embrace, 
which truly makes my heart race. 

And if dreams do come true, 
then all of this, he'd probably do. 
I'd probably be the luckiest girl. 
My life would be one happy whirl. 

But all of this is just a fantasy, 
a foolish dream that can never be. 
Though liking me is not as impossible as it seems, 
He'd probably like me only in my dreams.