Last Honest Goodbye

So maybe I have been lying

To myself and to others.
Maybe that is why deep inside, I'm still hurting,
Because my heart just really wants to burst.

It has been so long.
I can't even remember your voice anymore.
But still, I feel that something is wrong,
like I left an unclosed door.

And lately you've been in my dreams again,
like a ghost haunting me.
I told myself, I'd move on, but when?
Because until now, the past won't let me be.

I am still waiting, as of now.
Waiting for that day to come.
I may not know when or how,
but from waiting, I won't grow tiresome.

I'd just like to tell you that I know you don't feel anything for me,
and I guess I know the reason, so I'm not going to ask you why,
but I wish you'd say you don't like me, so my heart would finally see.
I just want you to free my heart with one last honest goodbye.