Atleast You Tried

You've been preparing yourself for that day,

you've rehearsed in your mind, over and over, what you gotta say.
You feel yourself backing out, afraid of what might happen,
but you think to yourself, if not now then when?

So you trudge forward hesitantly, fearful and nervous,
but this you do not show, though your emotions try to break loose.
You get it over with finally, once and for all,
and that was what started your whole downfall.

The words poured out, you've said all that has to be said.
Now your only fear is to hear the words you truly dread.
But they did not speak, they did not have anything to say to you.
So now you feel down after doing what you had to do.

Yet that is not what you should really feel.
Be glad, be proud, because your emotions are real.
You were brave enough to do what you fear.
Do not belittle yourself for what you did is not mere.

In this current world, you won't always get what you deserve,
so don't be surprised if your life takes you to a curve.
Don't be too down because you didn't get what you wish for,
there are many more plans for you, you just need to open the door.

Maybe it's just not for you now or maybe it's not for you ever,
but atleast this you know now, you won't be tormented forever.
Atleast you tried, atleast you know what this path has in store.
You gained success in a different way than what you had hoped for.